Thursday, April 28, 2011
I'm not typically available to go to the gym on Tuesday mornings, but this week my schedule changed a bit and suddenly morning was the only time on Tuesday that I could squeeze in a workout. I checked the class schedule and the only thing offered was step class. My foot has been feeling great, so I decided I'd rather do step than suffer through half an hour on the elliptical.
Fifteen minutes into class I felt a *POP* in the arch of my foot and suddenly I couldn't walk. FUUUUUCCCkkkk (sorry, but I was pissed). I hobbled out of class, went downstairs to the recumbent bike and finished up a somewhat respectible workout. I stopped by my PT's office on the way home and he said either I damaged my plantar fascial tendon (bad, really really bad) or I maybe broke through some scar tissue that had formed on it from my last injury (still bad, but not nearly as much). He told me to ice it and stay off of it for a few days and see how it felt.
I iced and medicated all day just like a good girl. After swim practice, the boys and I stopped by our local market and I picked up a salad for dinner ~ knowing that I wouldn't be burning *any* calories the next day I figured a light dinner would be best.......
Little did I know that some of these guys were hiding out in my lettuce. I ate about 2/3 of the salad while the kids and I watched The Biggest Loser. I tucked the boys in and started feeling really bloated and just overall sort of icky. I popped some digestive enzymes and drank some water. Didn't help. I popped some TUMS and went to bed. I tossed and turned all night with a horrible, icky nauseous feeling.
I woke up Wed morning and was sick as a dog. I'll spare you the details, but let's suffice it to say that I spent 95% of the day either in bed or sitting on the toilet. The other 5% was spent crawling into the kitchen to dig crackers and cheese slices out of the pantry/fridge for my kids to eat.
But at least I stayed off my foot, right? I woke up this morning with my tummy feeling fine but I had one hell of a headache. I've spent the day sipping on Gatorade and coffee. I wasn't sure if the headache was from dehydration or caffeine withdrawl. I decided to conquer both.
I feel ok now and have even considered going to the gym for Zumba, but I think I'll play it safe (both with my stomach and with my foot) and stay home tonight. Afterall, I think I ate less than 200 calories all day yesterday and today combined so far! LOL!
On a positive note, I lost 4 lbs in 24 hours. I don't recommend it, though.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
I'm heading to step class this morning to see what my foot thinks of that. If all goes well, I may try running one whole mile on Thursday. A whole mile - woohoo!
And I think my scale is f@^*ing with my head. This morning it was back down to exactly 217.6 *sigh*
Monday, April 25, 2011
We hunted eggs at a friend's house ~ it's out yearly tradition (Hi Nom!!) ~ and for the first time I didn't have to go out with the boys and trek through the woods with them. I was able to sit and socialize the entire day (read: sit and eat). I felt like a giant fuzzy dog terd when I got home yesterday. I took a nap and set out the leftover fruit tray for dinner and told everyone "we're eating fruit for dinner to try to detox some of the crap we ate today."
So, as you can imagine, I was hesitant to step on the scale this morning! I had been weighing myself every morning and my numbers had been holding steady all week and all I could do at this point was hope that my workouts were enough to counter balance any damage I had done over the weekend.
And they were....last week I had a big drop and I know that was mostly water weight as it was my first week back at the gym in quite some time. As of Wed morning, I'd put a few ounces back on and they stayed all week. And they were still there this morning. I'm a little bummed, but I know it's just my body evening out after getting used to working out again. I'm still going in the right direction, so I can't be upset about that!
This week's weight is 218.2 for a slight gain of .6 lbs over last week, and a total loss of 6.8 lbs since the beginning of this blog. I feel like I'm starting all over again. That injury really derailed me for a while, and it didn't help that it happened right over the holidays. But, I'm back and I can't dwell on past mistakes, right?
Sunday, April 24, 2011
I am not a religious person. I do not read the Bible as an historical document, but rather a source of inspiration. A collection of lessons to be learned about living the best life that you can live.
To me, Easter is not about a dead man rising from the dead, but about celebrating a renewed spirit for life. It's about reflection. It's about acknowleging your mistakes and the mistakes of others. It's about moving past them. Forgive yourself and forgive others. Move past the trangressions that are holding you back. Walk away with your head held high, and do not dwell on the negativity of those around you.
It is no coincidence that Easter falls each year in the beginning of Spring. Both symbolize a rebirth. A reawakening. What will you do this year to cleanse your spirit and move forward?
Friday, April 22, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
- We've gone out of town
- We planned an 8 year old's birthday party
- We rushed said 8 year old to the ER after he nearly cut his thumb off. (11 stitches is a lot in a little thumb!)
- We cancelled said birthday party because it's hard to go rock climbing with 11 stitches in your thumb.
- We rushed a dog to the vet after getting nipped by another dog at the kennel and developing an infection on his head
- I've had my husband home for 25 days (in a row). Fabulous ~ but it really wrecks my routines
- I ran a four mile run pain free
- I went to a support group for TBI survivors and have begun the horrible task of trying to get a referral to a specialist
- I've begun walking with a noticable limp and haven't been pain free in at least two weeks
And 5000 other things that I'm sure I'm forgetting......
I've used every one of those things to avoid exercising and eating properly. I feel like shit and I'm quite certain I look like shit. I'm frustrated because I can't run right now. My half marathon is 8 weeks away and the furthest I've run is 4 miles and I can't even run 2 miles without cringing right now.
I used that to completely throw in the towel for exercise. I know my foot feels better when I do non weight bearing exercise. I can ride the bike, I can swim, I can even do the elliptical, I can lift weights. All of those make me feel better and help my foot heal, but I drowned myself in pity and said fuck it all.
No more. It ends now. I'm pressing the reset button. I'm putting the half marathon out of my head for now. I will go to the gym and do what worked for me the last time. I'll take the strength class, I'll ride the bike, I'll take the ball class, I'll do spin, I'll swim. Anything but run. And when my foot feels better I'll run a mile. And when that doesn't hurt, I'll run two. And if by some miracle of God I can get my mileage up to 1o miles in the next 8 weeks I'll run that half marathon. Otherwise, I'll keep doing what doesn't hurt and eventually I'll get there. I live in Seattle for crap's sake ~ there are half marathons all year long around here. I'll find one and I'll do it.
The sun is shining today, it's a beautiful day and I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself. I'm back, peeps. I'm so very very back!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
I didn't have the heart to tell her that, by definition, half and half is half milk and half cream. There is no such thing as real (aka "clean") fat free half and half.
I am always astounded by the number of people that believe fat free or sugar free or gluten free or *insert* free is automatically the healthiest option.
Often times when one offending compnent is removed a chemical, synthetic version is used instead. I recognize that sugar is not a healthy ingredient. However, give me evaporated cane crystals over Splenda (or sacchrine or aspartame) any day of the week.
Calorie free or fat free is not synonomous with healthy. I have found that the chemical synthetics actually can leach the nutrients from my body leaving me feeling sluggish and ill. Nutrient rich whole foods from the earth are the best way I've found to nourish my body and stay healthy.