You'd think I'd learn......

I'm pretty sure this has happened once before ~ My kitchen is a mess, there is a serious lack of food in the and house and I feel like shit. I'm beginning to think these things are related (duh!)

I'm right now drinking my first green smoothie in days and I can feel an immediate increase in my energy already. I'm not even half way through with the glass.

I wonder how many times I have to do this to myself before I finally get the message?

Weekly Weigh In

We've been running all day so I'm just now getting around to posting my weigh in results. Well, let's just say they aren't the greatest. Today's weight: 222.4. Up .2 lbs from last week for a total loss of 2.8 lbs. It's not exactly where I wanted to be this week. I know I'm retaining water for a multitude of reasons. I ate some salty foods this weekend at a bbq and I'll be starting my period this week. I still expected a loss, though. I'm frustrated, but I'm not discouraged. I recognize that the body goes through natural weight fluctuations and that mine is still adjusting to my new eating style and workout routine. I'm adopting new healthy habits and that alone is a victory for me.
I intellectually know all of these things, but it doesn't make it easier to deal with. I've been watching Jillian Michael's new show and these people are losing like 5+ lbs per week. I like instant gratification. Patience is not exactly my 'thing'. Gggrrr.....
Next week that scale WILL GO in the right direction. Mark my words.

Channeling My Inner Jillian.....

Over the weekend I started watching
"Losing It With Jillian" on Hulu. I've cried on every. single. episode. Every one. What can I say? I'm a sap. But it's made me realize something. I've been craving inspiration. I'm working out and changing my life because I know it's what I need to do. It's what I want to do. But I'm not inspired. Or at least I wasn't. I've been looking for inspiration outside of me. I thought I needed something tangible. After watching Jillian get in the face of some many families, I realized that inspiration comes from within. You just sometimes need a psycho crazy trainer to help you find it. I'm not ready to invite Jillian to the gym with me, but I have been thinking about the show while I've been working out this week. I've stepped up my workouts a bit. Each time I feel like quitting, or each time I feel like turning the treadmill down a notch, I channel my inner Jillian. I'm a little nicer, but my message is still the same "you cannot quit."

So, I've channeled Jillian and what's been happening? I'm. putting. on. weight. What. The. F*uck? I know, I know....I'm doing a lot of strenght training. I'm making muscle. I really am. For the first time in my entire life I can feel my ab muscles. I didn't even know I had ab muscles. I'm not posting my measurments again until the first of the month, but I measured tonight out of curiosity and I'm losing inches. I'm just not losing on the scale. I'm frustrated, but I'm not discouraged. I have a plan. I'm going to up my water intake. By the gallon(s). I mean, my water bottle will not leave my side. It will be my new best friend. And I'm going to up the cardio. Strength training is awesome and it will ultimately benefit my metabolism, but for now I need a little boost in that area.

I'm gonna make Jillian proud!

*on a side note, the other day in the Ultimate Strength class, a 70 something grandma totally wiped the floor with my ass in crunches. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die, but I didn't. I kept at 'em. And now I can feel my abs. Go me! Go GRANNY!!*