A weigh a day

A weigh a day. A day a weigh. Either way. Who else wants to play?

I'll stop now.

Who here knows Ben Davis? See, if I had a computer I'd link to his blog. Then you'd all know him. You'll have to google him. Sorry.

Anyway, he's doing a weigh in a day. I think it's until his next marathon - oh by the way, he's running 52 marathons next year. Crazy, right?

So, I decided to copy him, because since discovering pinterest (pretend I linked to it) I don't think I've had a single creative thought of my own. Hello, overload

I'm going to weigh myself every day in the month of December - and post it here Who's with me?

Yeah, yeah, I know all of the experts say...blah, blah, blah. I know me. 1. I weigh myself everyday anyway. May as well blog it. 2. I need more accountability. I'm a hopeless procrastinator. If I don't have to post my weigh in until Monday, I don't actually start thinking about it until oh, Saturday?? But if I'm posting my weight everyday then I have to think about my choices everyday. And what better time of year to be fully conscious of your choices?

I weighed today and I am at 221.0. I missed my birthday goal, but I think (again, can't link or even look it up right now on my damn iPad) my next goal was 25 by my anniversary. That's Dec 10. That's 12 days to lose 6 lbs. it'll be tough, but I think it can be done.

Who's with me? Anyone want to make a button? I so don't know how to do that.

**I really do love my iPad. It just sucks as a blogging tool.

We ordered a new computer! It should be here sometime next week. Whoot!! Nothing like dropping an extra $1500 a month before Christmas! Ouch!! I'll be back online before you can name all of Santa's reindeer. Maybe....on blitzen, on dasher....

Still Here

.....the iPads are great for so many things, blogging though, not so much. The computer finally gave up the ghost the other day. It held on so tight for a few days, but it finally took its last breath and handed over the blue screen of death.
Sigh.... Anyway, I have some awesome things I want to share with you, but this just isn't right. We're getting a new computer in a few days. Until then I'll check in her from time to time.....

Blogging from the ipad

I've finally figured out how to blog from my iPad. It's not a great app, but it's free and my computer is dead again so this is better than nothing!
There are other apps out there, but they cost money. I hate spending money on apps! Lol.
I'll be checking in later to update you on my workouts, goals and simply life in general. (I can't create hyperlinks. That's annoying)

Compromises, Priorities & Putting Myself First

My husband has a saying that he's quite fond of: "Everything is a compromise." It's true, everytime we make a choice, we're chosing something in place of something else. I just turned on my bedside lamp; I chose lightness over darkness. I drank coffee this morning; I chose caffeine over crankiness. I ate a lot of candy this weekend; I chose instant gratification (that wasn't really even that gratifiying) over my health.

Several years ago I joined up with some friends and we tried to form our own little weightloss support group. We met at a friend's house once a week, we paid a couple of dollars, we weighed in, we got tickets for certain things (meeting goals, losing pounds, etc etc) and at the end of the month, the person with the most tickets got the money. It eventually petered out, but one meeting sticks out in my mind above all others: another friend of ours has acheived lifetime member status with Weight Watchers and she also works for them as a meeting leader. She came to one of our meetings to answer some questions and get us all going in the right direction. She asked us about some of our obstacles and I mentioned eating off my childrens' plates. Rather than throw away a couple of chicken nuggets and wasting them, each night I chose to eat them. She asked why I felt I had to eat them and I mentioned that they were expensive. She said, "Ok, so you are saying to me that you would rather chose a few pennies over your weightloss and your health." Well, HELLO TRUTH! Nice of you to make an appearance!

I was raised in a home where food wasn't wasted. Period. If I got up from the table and there was still food on my plate, my dad ate it. If we were at a restaraunt and I couldn't finish my meal, my dad ate it. Leftovers were repurposed and made into a new meal later in the week ~ or my dad ate them for lunch until they were gone. You don't throw away food. This has been drilled into my head since childhood.

When my friend pointed out that I was making a choice, it was like someone kicked me in the gut. It hadn't ever occured to me that I could chose differently.

I'm no longer afraid to toss out my kids' leftovers. If I find an item in my pantry and can't remember how it got there (or why I bought it) and I know it's not in line with my choice to be healthy, I'm not afraid to donate it (or toss it, if necessary). I do not intentionally waste food, but I'm no longer afraid to remove things from my kitchen if they aren't moving me closer to my goal.

I'm MAD

*source*

I'm mad and I'm tired. Tired of setting goals and not reaching them. Tired of just giving lip service to this journey I'm supposedly on. I'm tired of dreaming about being a healthy weight, about being skinny, about being a hottie.

I set some goals a few weeks ago: Two pounds by my birthday. Two fucking pounds. I was working out, but I wasn't pushing myself. I finally got pissed off enough at the thought of another goal just passing me by, so about four days before my birthday I decided to get serious. I was sweating bullets at the gym, burning almost 1000 workout calories a day, counting my calories, watching what I was eating. I was on fire. My weight was up each day, but it always is when I'm working hard. I knew after a rest day it would level out and go down.

Except it didn't. Saturday was a rest day, so I officially weighed myself on Sunday. It was 223.8 WTF?! It went UP? UP? So I spent yesterday feeling sorry for myself. I found myself with my hand in the Halloween candy more than once. I skipped my workout and I felt the self pity taking over.

But I woke up this morning with a new attitude. No more missed goals because I didn't work for them. If I miss a goal it'll be because I've done absolutely everything in my power to get to it and it just wasn't meant to be. I was in the gym today, back at a yoga class. I'd forgotten how much I enjoy yoga. It felt great and according to Livestrong, it burned about 230 calories. Afterwards, I hit the elliptical with my ipad. I watched an episode of Pan Am while sweating through an interval workout. According to Livestrong, that burned over 800 calories.

I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing. I have every intention of meeting the rest of the goals I set ~ 215 by our anniversary and 210 by Christmas. My lowest weight since starting this blog was 212 and that was just over a year ago (Dec). I do not intend to start 2012 heavier than I started 2011, thankyouverymuch!

So, here's to pushing myself through the holidays. Won't you join me?

Schweady Schweady workout. Love having my iPad with a wifi gym. I can get caught up on Grey's Anatomy and not think about the fact that the workout I picked on the elliptical had the word "killer" in the title. Awesome. 

1 scoop Jay Robb Strawberry Whey Powder
1/2 c Trader Joe's Strawberry Orange Banana Juice
1 c Plain Kefir
1 c fresh pineapple, diced
1 banana
2 drops Sweet Leaf Vanilla Cream Stevia Sweetener

Delish!