Catching UP

Phew!! The husband has been home for over two weeks and he's home for another 10 days still. My computer time (or at least blogging time) seems to take a HUGE hit when he's home like this! Don't forget though, that my Facebook page is always more active than the blog, and I keep that going no matter what!

We decided to take advantage of this time off and dropped the kids off with my (newly retired) in laws and we headed off to wine country. It was an amazing, relaxing three days followed by two days staying with the entire family at my in laws house. It was exactly what this stressed out, over scheduled mama needed. We're back at home now feeling completely refreshed and ready to take on the world!

While I was gone, GoKaleo and a few other bloggers started a movement. It started out calling for everyone to reject the images in the magazines. No, not the impossibly thin models that we grew up seeing in the pages of Cosmo and Glamour. She's talking about the chiseled, muscular, perfect bodies of the women on the pages of fitness magazines and those "inspirational" photos that are all the rage on the internet right now.

Just as, in the 90s, young women didn't understand why they couldn't achieve this ultra thin, underfed "beauty", women now don't seem to understand how low BF% needs to be in order to see every single muscle in her body. Even the models don't look like that all the time. It does the same thing to body image and self esteem as those commercials featuring Kate Moss did to us in high school.

The movement took off like wild fire and they're now calling for everyone to ignore the scale for the entire month of April. This does not mean to throw caution to the wind and eat whatever you want. It's about living a healthy lifestyle, but not tying your self worth to an arbitrary number that you may or may not ever achieve. I know my mood is often effected by what number I see on the scale. Even though I know I'm doing everything right right now and I understand fluctuations are normal, that number still has a huge emotional hold on me. Not this month.

If you recall, I gave up the scale around the first of the year. It didn't kill me, but I was also at a cross roads with my exercise and I wasn't doing much during that time. This time, though, I've just come back from a mini vacation and I've jumped both feet into the deep end of CrossFit. Watching those numbers on the scale has become a bit of a safety net for me. And yet....it still has such a strong hold on me it has been known to determine what I eat the rest of the day.

Numbers down? Awesome, I'm gonna be extra perfect today. Numbers up? Fuck it. I'm just gonna eat whatever, it doesn't seem to matter anyway. How screwed up is that???

So, there you have it. No more weigh ins until at least May. Will you join us? There's a FB page where we're all posting and cheering one another on. Come play!